That’s right – I am depressed. My doctor says it’s depression, my therapist thinks it’s depression brought on by ADD.
ADD can cause depression, and once a person has had depression once, the likelihood of having it again drastically increases. My school term is down the toilet and I’m broke as a joke. But, I have a BF and son who love me, and I just got a new job. And Christmas is coming. I LOVE Christmas. I love getting neat presents for people, wrapping them, watching people open them. I also LOVE decorating for Christmas. I love getting the tree, hanging lights, making paper snowflakes, cooking holiday dishes (especially fudge) and, yes, opening presents. Shopping is the most fun part, though. Seeing all the cute new decorations and wrapping paper and greeting cards makes my day. I’m a Christmas dork 
I am hopeful. If things don’t improve by the New Year, that will be bad for me, emotionally. But now that I know what’s wrong is something that can likely be fixed by medication, I feel better. I thought it was ME! I thought something was wrong with me, that I should be able to fix it. But ADD isn’t like that. And since the ADD caused my depression, if I cure the ADD, the depression should go away.
My BF doesn’t understand. And he’s frustrated about me sucking in all my classes. I am too. I want to do homework, it’s just that I feel like I CAN’T. He is being supportive though, and I know he still loves me. I just don’t want to be this way anymore. I’m tired of letting everyone around me down and not being able to fully live up to my potential. Like the header says, depression sucks.
